One of the not-so good attribute of us Filipinos is being "uto-uto." Yes! Uto-uto - the attitude of saying yes over and over again eventhough it meant losing our own decision-making abilities and being laughed at by some "witty" individuals who pretends to be the stronger few. Being uto-uto means doing an act without deeply thinking about it. Because we are hardcore to our values, we don't realize we are also violating our selves for saying yes eventhough the real answer is no. It is not really wrong to say yes especially if your reason for doing so is to become reliant individuals.
We easily take the bait of saying "yes," and we unknowingly patronize abusers. So it becomes a habit. Saying yes all over and over again.
It is innate with our culture to please everyone -- especially those who are harder to please. It is for the same reason we have tolerated being colonized by different cultures. And for the same reason that we are still under the hegemony of colonialism.
And because of this we easily get fooled.
We become fascinated over something new to our eyes, something unique with our tastes or something fascinating with our senses. Just like when we try an un-reliable product and swore you shouldn't have bought it. Or when for example buying some pretty food on a restaurant which isn't so adorable when being swallowed.
What is so nerve-racking is that despite being fooled, some still smile and charge it to experience. Some still trusts and open up with the hopes of not experiencing the same fate again. The cycle of trusting-being fooled one more time goes on and on. While it is a sad story to hear, some people don't learn their lesson very well.
When it is time to stop, the red light should be flashing ON. When you reach the limit, the only word left to say is NO. Nothing's really over until you reject it. You should always tie the rope of the borderline.
There isn't anything wrong with pleasing someone. Just make sure to be pleased in return.
Friday, July 8, 2011
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Regalo
Ang pag-ibig ay daw ay isang “perfect gamble.” Isa daw itong
mapag-udyok na damdamin. Ito ay nagbabago at hindi dapat seryosohin. Hindi ito
pumipili ng taong lalapitan at lolokohin. At sa bandang huli ikaw ay iiwan nito
at paluluhain. Ganyan ang pag-ibig. Huwad at hindi makatotohanan.
Isa itong sugal na sa bawat lapag ng mga baraha ay dapat may
katumbas na malaking taya.
Marami na din akong nasaksihan na naging sawi dahil sa
pag-ibig. Meron nga akong kilala na halos lumuwa na ang dila mabuhay lang ang
babae na ibig niya. Ayun sa bandang huli olats lang siya kasi sumama na ang
babaeng ibig nya sa isang “stateside.” Kawawa naman siya. Ayun balak ata isulat
ang talambuhay niya sa MMK, makabawi man lang siya sa mga nagastos niya. Hindi
man siya naging matagumpay sa pag-ibig, baka naman daw sumikat sa larangan ng
pelikula. Astig! Pa-autograph
naman...
Yung isang kaibigan ko nga, binuhay ang isang pamilyang
akala niya ay sa kanya. Huli na niya nalaman na nagtatayo pala siya ng isang foundation. Kulang na lang magtayo din
siya ng United Nations! Yung isa ko pang kaibigang babae (na mukhang lalaki)
hindi niya kinaya nung pinagpalit sya ng super
poging boypren niya – naglaslas! Paano ba naman lalaki ang ipinalit sa kanya!
Hindi man lang ba niya na-gets na
kaya siya pinatos nung lalaking iyon ay dahil “wo-manly” siya?!
Pambihira din ung trip nung isa ko pang kakilala.
Pinagtiyagaan niya kasi i-deyt ng tatlong taon ang isang lalaking mukhang
unggoy sa kabila ng mala-sutla niyang hitsura. Ayun nauwi din sa simbahan ang
kanilang pag-iibigan. Hindi para magpakasal kung hindi para ipagtirik ng
kandila ang bawat isa. Nagising kasi si babae isang araw at napag-alaman na si Beast pala ay hindi kailanman magiging
isang handsome prince. Kung bakit
naman kasi nauso pa ang istorya ni Beauty and the Beast?
Sa bawat pagbabalik tanaw ko sa mga istoryang ito, hindi ko
maalis sa isip ko na ang pag-ibig ay isang trahedya. Nakakatakot, nakagigimbal.
Hindi ko ito dapat pasukin dahil baka ma-trap
ako sa isang bangin. Hindi ko ito dapat suungin dahil hindi naman ako marunong
lumangoy. Sapat ng maisulat ito sa mga libro o maging istorya sa isang
telenovela.
Ngunit kung ang taong nasawi ay tatalikod na sa pagmamahal,
masasabi kong ang taong ito ay hindi talaga umibig ng totohanan.
Ang pag-ibig ay hindi isang pakiramdam. Sapagkat kung ito ay
pakiramdam, ito ay magbabago. Hindi ito isang gutom na pagkatapos kumain ay
mabubusog na ang tiyan. Hindi ito isang sakit na pagkatapos uminom ng gamot ay
gagaling ka na. Ang pag-ibig ay buhay na katotohanan.
Tulad lang ng pag-ibig ng Diyos sa atin: Unconditional. Hindi ito nagbabago dahil
tayo ay makasalanan. Bagkus, ito ay mapagpatawad. Ito ay mapang-unawa kahit na
social climber ka. Ito ay mapag-bigay. Hindi ito mag-aalangan sa kabila ng
pagiging maganda ko at pagiging mukhang hampaslupa mo.
Ganun ang pag-ibig. Hindi ito dapat pinagdududahan.
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
My Fave: Princess Hours (Goong)
Anyhow, I’d like to share with you how much I adore that series. That series was aired early 2006 as an unofficial sequel to Prince Hours aired 2005. Apparently, that series has been a total hit since. A lot of people have been looking for it from the internet and there has been a tremendous increase on the demands of producing a DVD version of it. No wonder, it defeated Full House to a number two spot which has been a favorite of many since it was aired in 2004. Hancinema.net records the proof. So you may visit that site to know more. As of present Goong 2 is being filmed, with an expectation that it will be a hit, too.
Everyday, PH’s rating is increasing.( I am sad I can’t site the proof here, ratings site is a friend’s.) Even piracy is a proof for that. In Quiapo–where most pirated copies of that are available–one copy costs for about 300hp-500php, when before it is just sold around 150php DVD9 copy. Checking online markets such
PH was aired on primetime TV at ABS-CBN and ratings showed its growing demand defeating shows of other networks.
So, what’s actually with PH that most are getting hooked with it? I don’t like getting technical with my blogs, because I do that only when Im pissed with the story…so i hope nobody expects a technical review here, otherwise go to other korean sites,hehe.
PH is a story of a girl turned lady. A woman who desired to express her heart out. A girl who has a pure and innocent heart, whose life and world, because of a judgmental society became so hard to live in. A girl who was forced to mature early to address the demands of her environment. Never scared, she is a woman to look up to. She did not allow herself to be dictated with external pressures, rather made the world know she can have her own way. She stood on what she believed in to protect her dignity and to empower herself. And she is a woman who showed the world that the simplest things in life is what makes people most happy about.
PH is also a story of a man, who because of a traditional, sensitive, naive and closed-minded family was deprived of the happiness he truly deserves. He is a man who learned to be alone. A man who desired to live an island alone, unable to discover that the real great wonders of the world is to open up, love, communicate and be true. He is a man, when, after finding and learning to love embraced it . He is a man who told the world that there is more important thing than fame. A man, who proved the world that it is more manly to be able to stand for what is necessary and right and not just choosing among two options. And he is a man who taught everyone that the essence of being firm and mighty equates the abilty to give up ambitions to be happy.
"And then, the two characters meet..stood up for their dreams. They made a stand to chase after their destiny, not the other way around. And they were successful in telling the world:nobody dictates our own happiness but us alone."
Happy Watching everyone!!!Kansamnida!!!
Everyday, PH’s rating is increasing.( I am sad I can’t site the proof here, ratings site is a friend’s.) Even piracy is a proof for that. In Quiapo–where most pirated copies of that are available–one copy costs for about 300hp-500php, when before it is just sold around 150php DVD9 copy. Checking online markets such
PH was aired on primetime TV at ABS-CBN and ratings showed its growing demand defeating shows of other networks.
So, what’s actually with PH that most are getting hooked with it? I don’t like getting technical with my blogs, because I do that only when Im pissed with the story…so i hope nobody expects a technical review here, otherwise go to other korean sites,hehe.
PH is a story of a girl turned lady. A woman who desired to express her heart out. A girl who has a pure and innocent heart, whose life and world, because of a judgmental society became so hard to live in. A girl who was forced to mature early to address the demands of her environment. Never scared, she is a woman to look up to. She did not allow herself to be dictated with external pressures, rather made the world know she can have her own way. She stood on what she believed in to protect her dignity and to empower herself. And she is a woman who showed the world that the simplest things in life is what makes people most happy about.
PH is also a story of a man, who because of a traditional, sensitive, naive and closed-minded family was deprived of the happiness he truly deserves. He is a man who learned to be alone. A man who desired to live an island alone, unable to discover that the real great wonders of the world is to open up, love, communicate and be true. He is a man, when, after finding and learning to love embraced it . He is a man who told the world that there is more important thing than fame. A man, who proved the world that it is more manly to be able to stand for what is necessary and right and not just choosing among two options. And he is a man who taught everyone that the essence of being firm and mighty equates the abilty to give up ambitions to be happy.
"And then, the two characters meet..stood up for their dreams. They made a stand to chase after their destiny, not the other way around. And they were successful in telling the world:nobody dictates our own happiness but us alone."
Happy Watching everyone!!!Kansamnida!!!
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Korean, Korean
Have you ever seen a Korean film? Well, if you’re tired of seeing same stories and same concepts of Filipino telenovela, teleseryes and tagalog films, better shift mode now. There’s a lot of promise that awaits u if u try to see Korean films.
Not that im against any local films or series, but id lyk to share to you a good sense of finally looking into another mode of interest and freshening up our tired senses to bright new ideas and culture.
Although its hard watching and reading captions all at the same tym , this is a new challenge for us to enjoy something new and live a different sphere of colour in our eyes when we watch these films.
Since the stories dont rely on purely betrayals and success after each fall. But among others, it teaches
patience and how to be decisive and sure when falling in love. That is, it’s not on let alone feelings drama that life goes on but on matters of finding the felicity and serendipity of our lives only if we first be sensitive on our surroundings and allow a little or more devotion to our families. It is also a great experience to open our eyes to new cultures and lifestyles, which unknowingly we’ve been criticizing and mistakingly judging, or worse we dont understand at all. Shaping one’s life is not because we cant do anything about it, but it is with pride that these films reminds us that there are hopes and lights reminding us that we have a choice. All we need to do is to stand up for it goad for a brighter YOU! End of it all, the promise of these films is eternity of pure and unconditional love.
For starters, I advise you to begin watching love-comedy Korean films like "Crazy Love." But if you're sentimental and very emotional, try the films "Sassy Girl" and "Windstruck". There are also Korean series that are really promising like Memories in Bali, Spring Day, Full House, Stairway to Heaven, Feel Young, etc. All of which relies in the thing called friendship and family as its foundation. I have several names to advise on but my mind is locked at the moment. But im sure of one thing: Korean films are all enjoyable.
Let’s stop the traditional "langit at lupa" stories or the traditonal "im young and ur old" or the usual everyday siesta stories we get to see. This time, lets see romantic films based not on hard drama but the normal, comedy-serious fantasies of our lives. Best thing about it, you’ll ever feel that you’re in a vacuum, because each film/series introduces new concept and new ideas.
I couldnt express in words the kind of change it brought me when i saw one. But one thing is for sure, the legacy of love continues to unfold only when we let destiny fall into its places.
And to those who haven’t tried it…why are you laughing? Are you scared to try because you might be wrong? Nothing to loose if you’ll try.
Happy Watching! Anyeong!!!
Not that im against any local films or series, but id lyk to share to you a good sense of finally looking into another mode of interest and freshening up our tired senses to bright new ideas and culture.
Although its hard watching and reading captions all at the same tym , this is a new challenge for us to enjoy something new and live a different sphere of colour in our eyes when we watch these films.
Since the stories dont rely on purely betrayals and success after each fall. But among others, it teaches
patience and how to be decisive and sure when falling in love. That is, it’s not on let alone feelings drama that life goes on but on matters of finding the felicity and serendipity of our lives only if we first be sensitive on our surroundings and allow a little or more devotion to our families. It is also a great experience to open our eyes to new cultures and lifestyles, which unknowingly we’ve been criticizing and mistakingly judging, or worse we dont understand at all. Shaping one’s life is not because we cant do anything about it, but it is with pride that these films reminds us that there are hopes and lights reminding us that we have a choice. All we need to do is to stand up for it goad for a brighter YOU! End of it all, the promise of these films is eternity of pure and unconditional love.
For starters, I advise you to begin watching love-comedy Korean films like "Crazy Love." But if you're sentimental and very emotional, try the films "Sassy Girl" and "Windstruck". There are also Korean series that are really promising like Memories in Bali, Spring Day, Full House, Stairway to Heaven, Feel Young, etc. All of which relies in the thing called friendship and family as its foundation. I have several names to advise on but my mind is locked at the moment. But im sure of one thing: Korean films are all enjoyable.
Let’s stop the traditional "langit at lupa" stories or the traditonal "im young and ur old" or the usual everyday siesta stories we get to see. This time, lets see romantic films based not on hard drama but the normal, comedy-serious fantasies of our lives. Best thing about it, you’ll ever feel that you’re in a vacuum, because each film/series introduces new concept and new ideas.
I couldnt express in words the kind of change it brought me when i saw one. But one thing is for sure, the legacy of love continues to unfold only when we let destiny fall into its places.
And to those who haven’t tried it…why are you laughing? Are you scared to try because you might be wrong? Nothing to loose if you’ll try.
Happy Watching! Anyeong!!!
Monday, May 30, 2011
Anawangin Island Adventure
Lunes pa lang ng linggong iyon. Hindi talaga nawawala ang itim na ulap. Animo'y parang galit na galit ang langit at iniluluha nya ng malakas ang kanyang pagtangis. Kahindik-hindik. Padating pa lang daw ang bagyong iyon -- si Chedeng. Aba naman at talagang Sabado daw ang dating nito sa lupa ng 'Pinas! Biyernes ng gabi ang alis namin papuntang Zambales. Whoooahhh!!
Bigla akong naging madasalin. Lahat ata ng santo, tinawag ko bigla. Ganun ata kapag makasalanan, tumatawag lang ng tulong kapag kailangan na. Pero pasalamat pa din ako. Medyo malakas pa din ako kay Bro. Miyerkules ng in-announce ng PAGASA na hindi na daw mararamdaman ng bansa ang lupit ni Chedeng. Hindi nga lang nila nabigyan ng emphasis na sa dagat ito maglalagi.
Kaya ayun, nung May 28 hindi kami pinaligtas ni Chedeng. Sinalo namin ang lupit ng ulan at ang hampas ng mga alon habang binabagtas namin ang dagat mula Pundaquit papuntang Anawangin. Hindi pa man din kami nakakalangoy, basa na ang mga dalang suot namin. Magaling di ba?
Pero ayos lang. Kasi nung makadaong ang bangka, nakita ko ang isang munting paraiso sa tabi ng dagat. Ang ganda. Sobrang ganda. Kahit malakas ang ulan, hindi naitago ng mga ulap ang kagandahan ng kapaligiran ng islang ito.
Malamig ang tubig, sariwa ang hangin. Ang mga puno ang nagsilbing lilim sa ilalim ng ulan. Heto lang ata ang tanging summer outing na pinuntahan ko na umuulan. At eto rin lang ang tanging bakasyon ko na ang tanging trabaho ko lang ay kumain. Ang bagal ng oras. At ang nakakapagtaka, alas-tres pa lang pero parang gabi na! Nakatulog ako ng maaga. Ang malalakas na alon ay tila hele sa aking pandinig. Hindi ko na napansin ang sakit ng mga buhangin sa aking likuran. Salamat sa tent na napaka-ginhawang higaan.
Linggo ng umaga, tumila na din ang ulan. Mas lalo akong humanga sa ganda ng islang iyon. Pinakamaganda ito para sa akin. Kulang lang ang panahon. Salamat kay Lord, nakauwi kami ng maayos.
Pero siguradong babalik ako dito ngayong taon.
Bigla akong naging madasalin. Lahat ata ng santo, tinawag ko bigla. Ganun ata kapag makasalanan, tumatawag lang ng tulong kapag kailangan na. Pero pasalamat pa din ako. Medyo malakas pa din ako kay Bro. Miyerkules ng in-announce ng PAGASA na hindi na daw mararamdaman ng bansa ang lupit ni Chedeng. Hindi nga lang nila nabigyan ng emphasis na sa dagat ito maglalagi.Kaya ayun, nung May 28 hindi kami pinaligtas ni Chedeng. Sinalo namin ang lupit ng ulan at ang hampas ng mga alon habang binabagtas namin ang dagat mula Pundaquit papuntang Anawangin. Hindi pa man din kami nakakalangoy, basa na ang mga dalang suot namin. Magaling di ba?
Pero ayos lang. Kasi nung makadaong ang bangka, nakita ko ang isang munting paraiso sa tabi ng dagat. Ang ganda. Sobrang ganda. Kahit malakas ang ulan, hindi naitago ng mga ulap ang kagandahan ng kapaligiran ng islang ito.
Malamig ang tubig, sariwa ang hangin. Ang mga puno ang nagsilbing lilim sa ilalim ng ulan. Heto lang ata ang tanging summer outing na pinuntahan ko na umuulan. At eto rin lang ang tanging bakasyon ko na ang tanging trabaho ko lang ay kumain. Ang bagal ng oras. At ang nakakapagtaka, alas-tres pa lang pero parang gabi na! Nakatulog ako ng maaga. Ang malalakas na alon ay tila hele sa aking pandinig. Hindi ko na napansin ang sakit ng mga buhangin sa aking likuran. Salamat sa tent na napaka-ginhawang higaan.
Linggo ng umaga, tumila na din ang ulan. Mas lalo akong humanga sa ganda ng islang iyon. Pinakamaganda ito para sa akin. Kulang lang ang panahon. Salamat kay Lord, nakauwi kami ng maayos.Pero siguradong babalik ako dito ngayong taon.
Monday, February 14, 2011
A Sad Story
Once there were two high school students. A young boy and a young girl. They were always together and have been very good friends. They were not in love or anything like that, or at least. In fact, one of them treats the other as “best friend.”
The young boy was older than the girl. They would do anything for each other. The guy would dare ask the girl to do something and she would gladly do it. In return, he would seek to exchange his bargain to another favor. They spend school day together and would extend the day by going on long phone calls. Damn, no mobile phones yet at that time! The girl would sneak on one of her PE class to spend a badminton game with the guy and that sacrifice is untold until now.
They had nothing to fear and nothing to lose. Until year end breaks. They seem to be happy during the early years of parting: constant communication and gigs here and there. But age was so crucial that they ended up losing no chance.
Ten years after they meet again, unexpectedly. The girl is now a full-blossomed woman. Her environment changed everything in her except her heart. The boy, now a man has succumbed to the changes of his world. And everything about him before is now a history.
They are now both of age. But with different priorities. They tried to set foot to each others world but of no luck. Until the time when judgment calls it a day.
The guy formally asked the lady and she was caught off-guard. It was just that and the remaining days were blank. Nothing happened and everything was left unanswered.
Two months after, the guy held the woman in his arms. But it was now a different woman. For waiting is not another option — again.
The young boy was older than the girl. They would do anything for each other. The guy would dare ask the girl to do something and she would gladly do it. In return, he would seek to exchange his bargain to another favor. They spend school day together and would extend the day by going on long phone calls. Damn, no mobile phones yet at that time! The girl would sneak on one of her PE class to spend a badminton game with the guy and that sacrifice is untold until now.
They had nothing to fear and nothing to lose. Until year end breaks. They seem to be happy during the early years of parting: constant communication and gigs here and there. But age was so crucial that they ended up losing no chance.
Ten years after they meet again, unexpectedly. The girl is now a full-blossomed woman. Her environment changed everything in her except her heart. The boy, now a man has succumbed to the changes of his world. And everything about him before is now a history.
They are now both of age. But with different priorities. They tried to set foot to each others world but of no luck. Until the time when judgment calls it a day.
The guy formally asked the lady and she was caught off-guard. It was just that and the remaining days were blank. Nothing happened and everything was left unanswered.
Two months after, the guy held the woman in his arms. But it was now a different woman. For waiting is not another option — again.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
TPDH
Matindi ang trapik. Sumabay tuloy ang tindi ng kumakalam kong sikmura. Kung bakit naman kasi hindi ko naisip bumili ng makakain bago sumakay. Pasado alas-otso na ako nakauwi ng bahay. Ang gutom at pagod ay naghalo na talaga. Ngunit ang pagod at gutom ko ay sinabayan ng nakakabibiglang bungad ng aking ina.
Naipit ang kamay ng lola ko sa makina ng damit. Malalim at malaki ang sugat. Gaya ng karaniwang matatanda, hindi siya nagpadala sa duktor. Sa halip ginamot niya ang kanyang sugat na parang isang eksperto sa larangan ng medisina. Nilagyan daw ng kape para tumigil ang pagdudugo. Ngunit hindi ito naging sapat kaya nilagyan din daw niya ng asukal. Anak ng! Mabuti na lang at hindi naisipang lagyan ng gatas! At sa pag-aakalang hihinto at gagaling ito sa ganoong paraan, binuhusan niya ng amoxicillin ang nakabukas na sugat.
Alam kong mali ito. Kaya wala akong inaksayang oras at dinala agad namin siya sa pinakamalapit na ospital. Alas-nuwebe na noon. Kailangan ng sugat ng mabilisang lunas kungdi sigurado kong tetano ang aabutin ng lola ko. At dahil matindi pa rin ang trapik sa lansangan, sa pinakamalapit na pampublikong ospital nag-park ang aming sasakyan.
Kakaiba ang emergency room na yun. Walang tao sa receiving area. Maghintay daw kami sabi ng guwardiya, may lalapit din maya-maya. Umabot din yun ng sampung minuto bago kami inasikaso. Sa wakas, may nakaramdam na kailangan din pala ng lunas ng aming pasyente. Pagkatapos, pinapasok na kami sa trauma room. At tama ang pangalan ng silid na iyon. Sino man kasi ang pumasok doon ay tiyak na mato-trauma. Pansin kasi ang natuyong dugo sa monoblock chair na tila hindi na pinagkaabalahan pang linisin. Ang kisame ay puno ng agiw. Mabaho ang singaw doon na tila pinaghalo-halong amoy ng dugo, gamot, betadine at alcohol. Hindi din naman naiiba ang sahig nun na ubod ng dumi. Ang nakakakilabot pa ay ang kama ng pasyente dun --- parang himlayan ng mga malapit ng dalawin ni kmt.
Nilapitan kami ng nurse, bilhin daw muna namin ang gamot. Pambihira! Napaisip tuloy ako. Paano kaya kung mamamatay na ang pasyente? Hindi ba nila aasikasuhin kung walang pambili ng gamot? Sumunod pa din naman kami. Ang pharmacy ay katapat lang naman ng ER. May nakapaskil doon na 40% discount handog ng butihing mayora namin. Isang pasyente ang bumulong sa amin, doon daw kami bumili sa tapat ng gate ng ospital. Mas mura daw kasi doon. At totoo naman. Ang gamot na 220 sa loob ng ospital, 170 lang sa labas!
Nang mabili namin ang gamot, saka kami inasikaso ng duktor. Baka daw may bali ang buto. Kasi masyado daw malalim ang sugat. Kailangan daw ipa-xray ang lola ko -- may bayad pa din ito ha. Habang hinihintay kaming matawag, sinubukan kong interbyuhin ang bantay ng pasyenteng katabi namin -- pampalipas oras lang. Tinanong ko kung anong sakit ng pasyente nila. May LBM daw ang bata 3 araw na kaya pinapa-xray. Nagtaka naman ako. Kung may LBM ang bata, bakit kailangan ipa-xray? Buti nalang hindi ako duktor. At kung magka-LBM man ako, siguradong hindi ako pupunta sa ospital na iyon.
Nung tawagin na kami, pinagmasdan ko ang xray room. Gaya ng naunang silid, bagay ang pangalan noon sa kanya --- isang xray room. Meron doon nakakalat na eskeleton ng pinto ng cabinet ng lababo. Ang lababo ay may tubo na tila dating gripo. May bintana ang kwartong iyon na puro kalawang ang bakal na nilipasan na ng pintura. May mga agiw din ang machine. At maliban doon, may mga machine doon na parang eskeleton na lang.
Kagimbal-gimbal ang pangyayaring iyon. Ang gutom na naramdaman ko ay pinalitan ng matinding pagkasuklam sa gubyerno ng siyudad na tinitirhan ko. Habang nag-aagawan sila sa posisyon ng lokal na pamahalaan, maraming pagbabago na hindi mabago dahil sa kasakiman sa kapangyarihan. Habang pinagyayabang nila ang maskarang ginawa nila sa imahe ng lungsod na iyon, marami din ang nagsusupot ng mukha sa kahihiyan ng pabaliktad na pag-unlad ng aming pamayanan.
Sana lang bago pagandahin ang imahe ng kanilang liderato, subukan nila na pagandahin ang serbisyong kailangan ng tao.
Naipit ang kamay ng lola ko sa makina ng damit. Malalim at malaki ang sugat. Gaya ng karaniwang matatanda, hindi siya nagpadala sa duktor. Sa halip ginamot niya ang kanyang sugat na parang isang eksperto sa larangan ng medisina. Nilagyan daw ng kape para tumigil ang pagdudugo. Ngunit hindi ito naging sapat kaya nilagyan din daw niya ng asukal. Anak ng! Mabuti na lang at hindi naisipang lagyan ng gatas! At sa pag-aakalang hihinto at gagaling ito sa ganoong paraan, binuhusan niya ng amoxicillin ang nakabukas na sugat.
Alam kong mali ito. Kaya wala akong inaksayang oras at dinala agad namin siya sa pinakamalapit na ospital. Alas-nuwebe na noon. Kailangan ng sugat ng mabilisang lunas kungdi sigurado kong tetano ang aabutin ng lola ko. At dahil matindi pa rin ang trapik sa lansangan, sa pinakamalapit na pampublikong ospital nag-park ang aming sasakyan.
Kakaiba ang emergency room na yun. Walang tao sa receiving area. Maghintay daw kami sabi ng guwardiya, may lalapit din maya-maya. Umabot din yun ng sampung minuto bago kami inasikaso. Sa wakas, may nakaramdam na kailangan din pala ng lunas ng aming pasyente. Pagkatapos, pinapasok na kami sa trauma room. At tama ang pangalan ng silid na iyon. Sino man kasi ang pumasok doon ay tiyak na mato-trauma. Pansin kasi ang natuyong dugo sa monoblock chair na tila hindi na pinagkaabalahan pang linisin. Ang kisame ay puno ng agiw. Mabaho ang singaw doon na tila pinaghalo-halong amoy ng dugo, gamot, betadine at alcohol. Hindi din naman naiiba ang sahig nun na ubod ng dumi. Ang nakakakilabot pa ay ang kama ng pasyente dun --- parang himlayan ng mga malapit ng dalawin ni kmt.
Nilapitan kami ng nurse, bilhin daw muna namin ang gamot. Pambihira! Napaisip tuloy ako. Paano kaya kung mamamatay na ang pasyente? Hindi ba nila aasikasuhin kung walang pambili ng gamot? Sumunod pa din naman kami. Ang pharmacy ay katapat lang naman ng ER. May nakapaskil doon na 40% discount handog ng butihing mayora namin. Isang pasyente ang bumulong sa amin, doon daw kami bumili sa tapat ng gate ng ospital. Mas mura daw kasi doon. At totoo naman. Ang gamot na 220 sa loob ng ospital, 170 lang sa labas!
Nang mabili namin ang gamot, saka kami inasikaso ng duktor. Baka daw may bali ang buto. Kasi masyado daw malalim ang sugat. Kailangan daw ipa-xray ang lola ko -- may bayad pa din ito ha. Habang hinihintay kaming matawag, sinubukan kong interbyuhin ang bantay ng pasyenteng katabi namin -- pampalipas oras lang. Tinanong ko kung anong sakit ng pasyente nila. May LBM daw ang bata 3 araw na kaya pinapa-xray. Nagtaka naman ako. Kung may LBM ang bata, bakit kailangan ipa-xray? Buti nalang hindi ako duktor. At kung magka-LBM man ako, siguradong hindi ako pupunta sa ospital na iyon.
Nung tawagin na kami, pinagmasdan ko ang xray room. Gaya ng naunang silid, bagay ang pangalan noon sa kanya --- isang xray room. Meron doon nakakalat na eskeleton ng pinto ng cabinet ng lababo. Ang lababo ay may tubo na tila dating gripo. May bintana ang kwartong iyon na puro kalawang ang bakal na nilipasan na ng pintura. May mga agiw din ang machine. At maliban doon, may mga machine doon na parang eskeleton na lang.
Kagimbal-gimbal ang pangyayaring iyon. Ang gutom na naramdaman ko ay pinalitan ng matinding pagkasuklam sa gubyerno ng siyudad na tinitirhan ko. Habang nag-aagawan sila sa posisyon ng lokal na pamahalaan, maraming pagbabago na hindi mabago dahil sa kasakiman sa kapangyarihan. Habang pinagyayabang nila ang maskarang ginawa nila sa imahe ng lungsod na iyon, marami din ang nagsusupot ng mukha sa kahihiyan ng pabaliktad na pag-unlad ng aming pamayanan.
Sana lang bago pagandahin ang imahe ng kanilang liderato, subukan nila na pagandahin ang serbisyong kailangan ng tao.
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