Life is about survival. Sometimes you’re up and at times you
are down. You just need to go with the flow and trust that the Almighty is
there to care for you. There will be moments when you are questioning your
existence or your purpose in life. But it’s all about acceptance.
It was a fine sunny day. Everything seems to be according to
how I planned it. Road traffic is on its perfect shape, no disturbance with my
preparations, no disputes around me. It was a peaceful day. The latter part of
the day however didnt go on as to how I
imagined it. It rained. It was a sign that a big thing is coming up and i have
not brought my umbrella with me.
I had the longest waiting in my entire life. Eight hours was
pretty tiring, exhausting and nerve-racking. It was like waiting for a pregnant
woman to deliver her baby. It felt as in the plane getting stuck in air traffic
and you don’t know how long it is going to stay up in the air. And it was like
waiting for flood to stop after drowning several hectares of newly planted
crops. I guess, the time called me to prepare for a bigger storm which I never
took seriously. And for the first time in so many days, I was seeing my own
downfall.
That night, I knew I was alone. I knew there were no
familiar shoulders to lean on. And it is time for me to make the biggest
decision of my life. It was the same night that all my unanswered questions
have been replaced with a period. Though monetary issues can broke my heart, it
shatters me that my life support is unplugged and detached. It was unbreakable
and my well hidden tears came falling from my eyes.
I had the longest day
in my life. It felt like it will never end at all. But it was a day that I
realized that I only have God with me.
